Literacy of Dreams and Reality

My open diary: A new chapter

2008-11-17T06:08:00.004+11:00

Well, I suddenly felt a huge tendency to write something. It's 3.09am and I have work to get up to... but I really felt a huge itch to jot down a few words so i'd look back and remember silly stuff I'd said or done.

It's mid november already! 2008 flew by faster than 2007 eventhough its a leap year this year...

Life is boring is kuching... I wanna go back to the big city life... I miss Melbourne for the food, life, transportation, people, suburbs, etc etc...

Work is brain dead, tedious, and getting nowhere... and I'm not gonna repeat this.. but yea... pay is the worst!!

I felt like writing coz life is going nowhere... but an update.. good news to my Ext HDD... it was a miracle... and I've backed up all my files on a new HDD...

I look at my previous post and remembered how I felt when i wrote it... its much better now.. but thinking about it still makes me hollow inside and still makes me choke a little... how I wish things just went smoothly...

My bro has left for Manchester... the house is pretty quiet besides the grandparent's, aunt, and my parents... which I hardly see coz of my working schedule... yes i work late and its 6 days a week..
In comparison: I work a year here and I could get a Mac book pro. I work a month in aussie.. I could buy one right away... GAWD

I've been playing the lottery once in a while.. the 20mil jackpot... that's in ringgit...
we get taxed 10 percent here in East Malaysia... whereas if u buy it in West Msia... u buy RM10.. its RM10... here u buy RM10... its RM11... I don't put hope ont he lottery.. but its the only thing we've got here in kuching that's close to playing the pokies... LOL

Anyway, I did say I've quit blogging... well I'm not blogging.. its kind of like an open diary.. nothing personal.

I doubt I'd put pictures up here.. coz I'm all about writing.. I have plenty of pictures in facebook... so i don't need to repeat myself here.

Lastly, I've reminisce about my childhood recently. Particularly the time where I first learnt to ride my bike without training wheels. I was either 6 or 7 years of age. I took off the training wheels on my BMX; and I remembered how frustrating it was.. my mum and our maid tried to hold on to my bike.. but i said i could do it on my own... It was late in the afternoon.. My sis and bro were also riding thier bikes.. but my lil bro had training wheels.. and my sis eventually gave up. I on the other hand was very frustrated.. but i didnt wanna give up and kept thiking.. I know i can do this.... Everyone gone into the house except me and the maid. She waited for me.. and I asked her to watch me..

It was already dark, wasn't even dusk anymore... and I said to myself... 'One more time.. and this time i'm gonna go for it' I then went fast and voila! I did it.. i was thrilled... It took me one blow... totally skipped the middle part... if there was any to begin with... I cyled a few more rounds.. coz I could before i headed inside the house.

I know that in times of myself giving up.. I gotta recall that... 'Never give up!' just like my HDD...

patience is a virtue, eventhough it has given me alot of stress beforehand.. but if i dont work smart and hard... i'll never make it.. my dreams and wishes will never be fulfilled...
It also sickens me to see myself work so hard... and other people just slacking their butts off.. in anything, working as a team... etc etc... and unworthy lazy rich kids who spend their parents money like nobody's business... without lifting a finger for it....

Well I've learnt to ignore that, and focus on myself more nowadays.. coz what's it got to do with my success... they're rich; but hey at least I know I'm working for it...

darn.. its so late.. prolly gonna be tired at work tomorrow.. but i always manage

-End-
17th November '08 - Monday - 3.40am

regresa a mi :~

2008-07-10T01:54:00.002+10:00

Friends to best buds since 12th July 2006

'why do birds suddenly appear' - 26th November 2006

long distance since 23rd February 2008

heartbroken - 2am.. 8th July 2008

main reason: distance apart.. feelings subside.. gg....

friends?... I hope/guess so... cause the 'lil ones' are still counting on friendship and baka-ness... (pengwin nods)

well.. who's keeping track...

me... :(

The best answer

2008-07-07T02:37:00.004+10:00

I may have quit blogging.. but I am not sure of myself then or now...

Anyhoo... this will be a quickie

I just wanted to emphasize on the common phrase and easiest answer to all of your questions "I don't know"

I think only people who are Lazy, inconsiderate and irresponsible answer with that phrase...

I was so pissed earlier.. and wanted to blog at that angry moment...

Maybe some people will never understand the mind of a person who strives to work for a better life now... it's sad that they try to question you and bring you down... especially when it's coming from your own flesh and blood... they will never understand me.

What's been happening in my life now?

I've been working for 3 months now.. work is good.. i like it... but... there is always a BUT...

everything has its pros and cons i guess...

I've been gymming... almost 3 months now.. and dieting at the same time...
I have had many cheat meals, 'recently'
food makes people happy... you get it?

I gym hard, i diet hard.. but when there are obstacles.. i guess my will power isn't as powerful as i thought it was.. but I'm not giving up.. i've come so far.. i've seen results.. i was happy with em.. but i have to be more patient with myself...

3 months.... 3 MONTHS! of dieting gyming almost everyday.. it is an achievement...
there is another achievement and it is a record i set when each day passes... I won't say...

Problems... life is a never ending series of obstacles...
I have awaken many bad habits from my past.. some from small to serious matters...

Failure... my ipod mini... 3 and a half years of companionship.. gone when i dropped it for the first time head first onto the tile floor after work, before heading off to gym.. i was bummed out.. screwed my week at gym.. till today.. no replacement yet.

my watch.. i worked hard for also 3 years old.. the glass split in half.. no idea how.. i'm guessing the gym weights must have tapped it...

my laptop... half dead.. left untouched to reduce further damage... collecting dust atm... no resale value...

ok.. enough is enough.. i'm not gonna cry over spilt milk.. all these must be a sign of letting go of my past.. its depressing... yea.. move on...

so it wasn't a quickie afterall...

one more thing... i'm not gonna post up any pics here... its just a waste of my time... i'd rather write my thoughts.. just like a digital diary...

Quit blogging

2008-03-02T21:28:00.002+11:00

Yeah, I've decided to put this to a stop. if you want updates from me.. go add me or send me a holler on www.facebook.com

i wont shut this blog down though.

I kind of lost touch with blogging.. or maybe don't have the time.. or just grew out of interest for it. Blogging is about writing bout your thoughts and current affairs, but unfortunately i've got nothing on me now.. but pictures. I don't see the purpose of uploading hundreds of pics on a blog because the function of a blog is.. you've got it BLOGGING! not photo albums... so use flicker or shutterfly or better still use facebook where it's totally user friendly for all ages to surf through pictures of your life.

yes and they're specifically for people I know only or important contacts!

goodbye to blogging life. see yaz in facebook.com

Ciaos~

Just a little update

2008-01-30T05:54:00.000+11:00

I've been back in Cat City for a few days now. I have been cleaning/clearing out my junk non-stop ever since. I just realized how young & foolish I was before by keeping all these so-called items. I use to have sentimental value towards these junk, but now i'm chucking them all out because there is just too much clutter. I wish I could have a store or a car boot sale to sell all my junk... I threw so much useful stuff away back in Melbourne right before I left. I could make a fortune selling them off in time

I miss Melbourne.

I miss him.

I need my own space... and I don't have that here being back home. No privacy, controlled boundaries. I miss my Melbourne home with my boy. I miss slogging for money in Melbourne.

Even though it feels like I've got nothing to do... but I have plenty of chores and errands to complete before CNY, before my dad's bday dinner, & before I head to KL/Penang in 2 weeks time. I can't hardly wait for Penang.

It's time for me to get back in the game.

P.S. I ordered a lomo camera (Fisheye2) last thursday night and I got it Fedex and it arrived on Monday morning... all for only AUD100... golly! Besides that, I have a new Canon 400D to my collection.

So long Melbourne...

2008-01-08T20:51:00.000+11:00

I will be leaving Melbourne, Australia soon... and for good.

I cant believe that one and a half years have gone by so quickly. That's how long it took me to complete my degree course when I actually could have completed it in a year. Well I was young and foolish to asked for an extra semester when i first discussed it with an RMIT representative at Hilton Kuching back in 2005. He offered me 1 year on the spot... and I asked for an extra semester.

Oh well, that was the past. It seemed like it was yesterday when I applied to a few Universities and was offered a spot... 2 in UK, which i declined and made a wrong decision to study at RMIT University in Melbourne.

Ok, I won't be bringing up that mistake again. I am truly grateful that my dad sponsored me on my education ever since I entered Kindergarten at a young age of 3 1/2 yrs old...

I would have said good riddance Melbourne all because I had a rough 2007. Although I can say I am done with this city... i can't help feeling a little nostalgic of this place. I may grow from all my mistakes and obstacles I had to overcome the past year.

Melbourne has truly been an experience I will never forget or repeat ever again in my life. I will miss in in some ways, but the world is waiting for me and this is not the city I wish to settle down in.

Friends come and go in my life, but the ones who stay... I would like to say that even though we may not see each other or have contact for a long period of time... no matter what happens... if we're meant to be friends forever... I needn't worry... where will, there is a way...

This chapter will come to an end before the end of this month...

My favourite song of all time

2007-12-23T13:45:00.000+11:00

Sade - By your side

This very first time I heard this song was when I watched the episode of 'Sex & the City' When Richard and Samantha had a conversation at the end of the episode and took a swim.. then credits... i loved this song since then... so soothing to the soul.

This video is very bohemian to me and i cant really tell wht the concept is for this video.. maybe surrealism?... not exactly.. but i had a totally different perspective of what the video looked like before i watched this video for the first time..

been tagged by Amber

2007-12-23T01:25:00.000+11:00

* link to your tagger and post these rules.
* list eight random facts about myself
* tag eight people at the end of your post and list their names. (jess: im not going to...)
* let them know they have been tagged!

1. People call me jess, jessie, jessica, j, girl, spunky, jazzo

2. I love beaches... forever and ever and ever and ever........ u get my point...
I meant beautiful beaches.. i wanna go Fiji, tahitti, hawaii, long beach, gold coast again............. hahaha!

3. i love eating good food... and holy crap.. Poon went to the most expensive & top restaurant in melbourne with his parents and spent AU$1200 that night... and it would have been AU$1600 if i had gone... coz he asked me to, but i declined coz i know it will cost a BOMB... its
the restaurants is Vue de Monde (pronounced Vu-the-mone) poon says he's gonna bring me there soon... err... but there's plenty more to try b4 i go home for good :(

4. The things I'm looking forward to is my final day at work on the 30th of december 2007... and also my trip to Cairns on the 10th of January 2008. My flight home to Kuching on the 24th of January 2008. And also the chinese new year of the RAT!!!... my year... and from there I know it's been 2 cycles since i was born... that means I will be 24 this yr..... holy cow...

5. Music that soothes me are cafe del mar, ATB, Daft Punk, and a few other mellow songs here and there...

6. I hate Working at GIGI (Gee-Gee) with that bias BIATCH CINDY!!!!! sh'es the Boss's sister, but i dont give a shit.. she backstabs.... is rude.. gives no respect... and is a huge tub of lard who eats non-stop...... Ursula the witch from 'The little mermaid' in reality.... they actually gave me shifts on 25th and 26th of december.... the nervve!!!! but i said i cant work on those days.. too bad so sad... for them!

7. I'm obsessed with earning money... wth rite... been working like mad with shitty pay and been treated like a dog... oh well.. i just quit the job today... seriously!... i'm so obsessed with money that i try my luck with lottery... not knowing that i'm wasting my money buying the ticket and not gaining anything in return... well who knows?

8. I am a mat... everyone walks all over me... and such a push over... god help me pls...

tagged victims: Tim, Kah yee, CH3, .... hmm lazy to tag anymore ppl.. oh well..

I Leave u with ATB's Here with me.. i love this song at this very moment

Graduation Videos

2007-12-15T22:26:00.000+11:00

Warning: Be sure to lower your you tube volume!!

Releasing our balloons after the morning parade to Federation square... actually the balloons were such a hassle that it was best to release it early... People: Cynthia, Cristine, Poon & I

Credits to user cghb1210@youtube for this video
The release of the balloons resembling the 2007 graduates after the ceremony

Graduation Day 2007

2007-12-15T20:31:00.000+11:00

I am now a degree holder... i wish i could write more about my journey to this day, but it'll most prolly be in a later blog... for now, just pictures from the graduation day on 12th December 2007

Graduation Parade 10am-12pm

Bowen Lane

Federation Square

My luminous 'Singapore Orchid' from my parents
My orange Roses from Poon
Graduation Ceremony
@ Telstra Dome
6pm-10.15pm

Damn Blur but this is the only pic i have... sometimes it's hard to be the only good photographer in the family... but can't blame thatm that's its dark and the stage is so friggin far and they were giving out the certs like freebies...........
The 5.3K ++ balloons resembling the graduates of RMIT Melbourne 2007
Post-Graduation celebration at JCH Bar
Wednesday night is Karaoke Night in this bar

B Comm Design, BA Multimedia, Masters in Advertising, BA Multimedia + Post-Grad Cert in Advertising

Nice pic but too bad it's blur.... Cynthia & Roger

My Bro, Roger, Cynthia & I

Nick's pap, & Poon's Parents screaming 'Oh Carol'

Singing 'Knock Three Times'

Pretending to drink 2 vodka raspberry & bacardi coke

Father & Son karaoke-ing

Bro & I

George Kamikawa @ Bourke Street

2007-12-11T23:54:00.000+11:00

Too bad i didn't record the whole thing... and the next song too.. there was this little boy damn cute.. showing his moves... radical! This was halfway of 'sake blues'

The next video below was unfortunately only the last part of the song.. but i really wanted to take a video of the boy in black dancing.. he's a natural born dancer.. hahah.. he came in like in trance at the beginning.. and his dad dance with him for a bit too... he's got beautiful blue eyes and nice blond hair witha tail like his dad.. his mum was pretty too haha

Cooties

2007-12-11T23:46:00.000+11:00

An american advert about cooties.... LOL

P.S. if your really don't know what cooties are... it's alright.. they're some imaginative disease these youngsters came up with by being touched by a member of the opposite sex... lol!

the little blond boy in blue is going to be a great actor one day.. so realistic... lol or maybe they really made him think he had 'em... haha

some pics during these past weeks

2007-12-08T02:15:00.000+11:00

Movida
Bar De Tapa
1 chef hat 15/20
rated by Good Food Guide '07 (The Age)

On the way to Movida (Restaurant in the background to the right)

Front view, tried to make reservations but fully booked and had to be early to sit at the bar.
Our 1st Aniversary Dinner; Sunday 2nd December '07

'Alhambra' (pronounced ah-lump-bra) $8 a bottle
The best spanish beer... totally smooth 6.7% alchohol. not available in any other bars.
Unfortunately i didnt take any pictures of our meal there. We shared 4 tapas (size of an australian 50 cents coin) and 2 Racion (looked like entres) I remembered there was the spanish croquette$3 for 1, thinly sliced wagyu with poached eggs $17, creamed scallops $4.50 each, another was this prawn thingy with fried pork belly and this pita looking thingy too.
So he had 2 bottles of alhambra and all together it cost us $85
The food was absolutely marvelous; it was nothing like I ever tasted in my entire life.

Why take a train when u can drive to Frankston in half an hour!
Fishing @ Frankston
1am-3.30am Tuesday 4th December '07

Melbourne is some dot further left out of the picture

Preparing & fixing on the bait (Fresh anchovies or sardines)
Left to right: Poon, Lim & Nick(Front)

Hard to get a clear shot as the dock was swaying... it's part of Frankston beach from the end of the dock. Frankston station is not nearby if you're wondering. The beach stretches till St Kilda Beach. Melbourne beaches suck...
The moon looks like the knight chess piece (1 quater moon)

Packing up early at 3.30am coz the rain clouds stormed in within seconds

Looking for a TAB at 4am++ on the way back from Frankston. All closed early or at 4.30am... so just went straight back home... boo

Vic Night Market
Every Wednesday night 5.30pm-10pm Summer only

Sadly, this is the only pic i have... it's lim's wife and 2 of his 'Do Re Me' children. They just arrived from Malaysia the day before around 8am on tuesday
This was 5th December '07
People who attended were Poon, Lim + 4 members of his family, Nick, his mum and his half sister; and of course myself.

My parents with a shot in Bourke Street
They arrived here around 11am 6th December '07
with my bro, but at this moment my bro was hanging out with his ex-classmates from high school.

8pm+ and still bright (summer)

Some birds at a pet shop in vic market on friday morning. These birds damn cute coz they don't chirp, but they really sound like gossiping birds.. so many of them and were so 'bo si tiam' in the cage. Then some other pet shop in vic mart were selling 'dwarf lop' bunnies for only $40 per bunny... i love lop bunnies coz their ears... lop... duh but i didnt take pictures... once again...

btw if u ever do go to vic market... 'DO NOT TOUCH' the merchandise.. and i mean fruits... the vendors damn tulan if u touch and don't purchase..

Dinner @ Meshiya
9pm 7th December '07
attendees: my parents & I

Sushi Sashimi platter especially made by Lim
Other than that, we had Agedashi Tofu and Tempura moriwase as our entre

cost me $40 after discount.. tee hee

Chef Poon during working hours @ Meshiya

Going around Melbourne Central and David Jones

Limited edition Absolut Disco @ David Jones winery section $44.95

poodles @ Melbourne Central's Pet shop

pure bred Chihuahua just like Pablo! but white...

Pablo the Chihuahua!

This shot below was at random some time last week... they seem to be promoting the new AX range of undies for men. . . i feel so sorry for the guys.. wonder how much they're getting to do this cheap cheap modeling job

no time to blog so i just posted up pictures and captioned them...
this is not all though... had pictures of my creme brule dessert at
Bistrot 'd Orsay and more
graduation's next week
I'm flying to Cairns next month!

Sexpo November '07

2007-12-05T14:24:00.000+11:00

This happened after one saturday morning yumcha back in mid november planned by Jib and she was the last one to arrive because she had to take a long detour pass the blocked roads for the Bourke Street Xmas parade.

Neways I had nothing to do after the yumcha so Cynthia invited me to the Sexpo... totally unexpected... and entrey fee was AU$25. So it was Cynthia, roger & I to the event we go.

We walked all the way there from china town.. that's a couple of blocks and we were attacked by billions of flies that day as it was sunny. The flies here are so horrible during summer... they're lazy slackers that leech on to you just like the locals... lol and they're fat too...

Without further a due i present u with the long lost pics of my camera... that's because my memory card got corrupted and my laptop is not in order... and as u can see all my past blogs have been a bore with my whining sessions of the fix and cost of my techy stuff... my laptop still has a prob though... something wrong witht eh USB reading ports... damn the technician... i'm not bringing my stuff back there anymore...

SEXPO '07

Her boobies are definitely fake. . . haha

He paints with his ding dong and his butt, u can still see the shadow even though i've censored it for blogging purposes. And if u really wanna know.. he's shaven... lol

Some sweet looking American rides... is it a Cadillac?

His body may be buffed, but he doesnt have a good looking face?

Dino Dick? he 'came' on some people... literally...

P.S. happy Tim? i finally have pictures... more past post will be up regarding my eating antics from the Good Food Guide Melbourne list! So far i've been to Movida (Spanish) & Bistrot d'Orsay (French/contemporary)

bill comes to $200++ for both.. but they literally have one of the best delicacies i've ever tasted in my life!!

Strange dream about aliens

2007-12-04T14:22:00.000+11:00

2 nights ago I had a weird dream... i dont know who were the people there but it seems like we were on a journey into a trap.. we were driving there in what seemed like a tank and all of a sudden it got all foggy... freakishly foggy.. and visibility was zero.

Then weird figures started coming in from all directions.. floating.. like in hundreds it was hard to see wht it looked like but they do have a human like stucture but more klumpy and greyish...
i was terrified.. trying to escape... and of course.. we all got caught..

I was then in this house.. and the location was where my real-life home was in kuching...
there was no where out. the next thing was that the people who were with me.. were actually thier allies and i got fooled by them... they told me that they wanted to switch my mind and anotehr girl who got fooled as well... to become one of them... well these ppl were in human form.. and I've never seen them in my life (in reality) So it got to me that these were mind switching aliens... (like i said.. it's so weird)

I made my escape by using some used up longish ice-cream container... (lol?) on my head... walked fast past them aliens in the car of the gate.. and just ran for my life...

i then seek refuge at one of the neighbours... but thier home didnt seem like a good place to hide.. as thier walls are merely big branches... and defintiely hard not to miss me... but it was too late to look elsewhere...

i tried to hide under thier tapestry... but they spotted my leg.. and i got caught...

-END- coz i woke up..

but it was a nightmare to me.. not a dream at all...

money woes

2007-12-01T13:10:00.000+11:00

i got my laptop back today.. which cost me AU$305... not including last time $190... so altogether is.. $500 big bucks... that's RM1600++ could easily get a whole new pc with everything with that money...

suppose to get it back at $250.. but not its $305 coz my camera's memory stick had a virus and my external corrupted.. well both corrupted.. all because of the fckin virus... pet32... and autoplay

had to pay in cash summore... if not it'll be $466.... wht BS is that rite? trying to con me coz im a girl.. i know this trick coz the place where i worked do the same thing... they wanna escape the taxes.... damn cilaka... to earn more... fcking ngiao chi ya know my boss.. customers get pissed at the middle person.. like us waitresses for saying it cost bloody 10cents.. for the soy sauce for the sushi.. and the wasabi and ginger as well.. where as if u buy anywhere else in melbourne... it comes free with it and u can get more!.... and now she's charging extra for vegies.. and lets say u want extra tofu.. extra 50cents each... TOUMAMEI!!!!

argh.. y does money always have to be the problem!!!!... and now i have to pay my rent again... $760.... internet, mobile and phone bill... $102

i cant even afford my trip which im supopse to go to Fiji... $1K :(

whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy does it always have to be like this when money isnt everything.................

splitting headache & graduation

2007-11-29T18:37:00.000+11:00

I've got a splitting headache... I just got back form work about more than an hour ago.

Poon helped me collect my graduation robes and motar board, tickets for my family etc.. but i had to go back to exchange the 'S' size motarboard for 'M'... my head is not so small after all. The robes and the motarboard stinks man.. damn smelly.. oh well.. what to do.. i'm not going to buy new robes just for graduation... it's rented and god knows how many thousand of students have used it along the years... ewww

I'm sick of working like a dog... i do my job well and i work damn friggin hard and fast.. and yet.. i still get nag at.. and what's worst... disrespected..

i respect people alot for what they do.. even if they do me wrong and what so ever.. but i still show respect to u as we are all human beings.. and what's good use if you show your bad traits... so i've decided to suck it up and be stupid enough to still respect you as im not the kind of person to be mean...

i think i'm way too timid and always get push around by literally everyone.. that's why i always get conned with money matters... even when i was little.. my sister would sell her stuff to me.. she tricked me into thinking it'z good stuff... she would sell her stuff turtle for RM5.. and RM5 is alot for a little girl of my age before.... till today.. i can say i've been conned from outsiders.. more than RM3000++ including ridiculous MLMs... those are the worst of all...
i even get conned for buying branded goods.. even though i realize that why do i wanna be like one of those girls or guys out there having own LV, GUCCI, Burberry, BMW etc etc.. but obviously the majority of them got these branded goods with thier parents money... DUH.. and im struggling buying then with my own.. well i ddint buy those mentioned lar... but just the minor stuff like AX, LACOSTE... etc.... but it's eatingg up my money and even though i've worked for about a year here with odd jobs and under minimum wage.. i'm still broke :(

you can call me the most 'BAKA' girl you've known... i'll accept it coz i've been such a pushover.. and i dont think that'll ever change..
no use crying over it too coz if i wanna change... i've gotta be such a BITCH and a LEECH then i can be like one of those materialistic people out there...

well i can be that too when i hit the lottery one day with a few million AU dollars or pounds for that matter... hahaah; one can only hope to dream...

P.S. omg omg omg.. my family would be here in a weeks time!!... and i havent clean up teh house and pack some of my stuff for them to bring home to KCH....

Testing my patience. . .

2007-11-27T16:29:00.000+11:00

It's been over a month without my laptop.. Just last friday i went over and the guy said it would be ready by saturday... then i thought since he said so.. I'd come over today... "Tuesday" to claim it.

He said he'll call me when it is done.. but it's been over a month.. which what originally suppose to be 3 days tops to transfer all my file.. with a fee of AU$140... which now turns out to be a month++ and with an extra fee of AU$200++... WTF man... now everything will cost me including the original cost before of $190... almost AU$500++... argh.. it's just insane... i shuld have brought it to the asian shop instead.. argh!!!! I'm giving him 1 more week and by hook or by crook.... i'll get my laptop back.. fix or not.. i just cant take it anymore..

he is friggin lucky to be dealing with such a patient person like me.. no wonder i'm good in my waitressing job.... LOL...

P.S. I've passed all my subjects... so i'm graduating for real... on the 12th of December... and my parents and my bro will be arriving in 8 days... :D

woots~

This video is just so adorable... makes u wanna own a chihuahua... well a fat one like Pablo!

the first thing that got me out of bed this morning

2007-11-24T18:06:00.001+11:00

i use to be a fan of this show when i was little.. i love it!

The Mousercise!!!!

$$$ spend spend spend spend spend

2007-11-24T16:59:00.000+11:00

Yesterday I spent around AU$250

Today i spent $55 (hair cut, which i needed badly) + $151 (L-Carnitine, muscle milk & blender bottle for weight control)

I needed my hair cut badly.. coz i havent had a hair cut since before CNY this yr.. beleive it or not!
Besides that, my hair dye was halfway down.. and if i wanna make my hair look normal again through this process called "henna" not sure.. that's what the korean hair stylist said.. it'll cost me AU$280!! yeaps i cut my hair at a korean hair salon just opposite my apartment (Recomended my Evelyn Hii).

not too bad lar the hair cut... but the fringe looked abit funny at first.. then i told the lady it looked funny.. apparently she didnt understood wht i said and she had to have her co-workers come over and explain to her.. phew!

Secondly.. i've become a slob... well not exactly.. thank god i have a part time job waitressing... well that's another day's story... will tell you about my experience of working odd jobs her in Melbourne in a future post.

Slob meaning i havent been doing any excercise or weight training since about a year ago.. well exactly a year ago... very bad eh...

I miss futsal, i miss any rigorous activities like hiking, rock climbing, caving etc.. lol swimming too... anything that keeps me going... weight training get boring. but you do see results.. but i wasnt losing enough fat to see em... so that's y i have L-Carnitine to help me out.. and the muscle milk.. it's not for muscle building only.. but its for mela replacement... but of course you do not cut out your meals at a whole.. you actualy have to up your meals... and of coruse more vegies etc.. but i'm not going to go crazy on all of this.. coz i do enjoy eating!!! i love it!!!... i just gotta put more effort in dieting the right way that's all..

anyways back to reality.. i gotta star immdiately..

i bought dresses, i bought weight control stuff and a new hair cut.. i hope i can bring out a new image.. coa i felt like it's time for a change... i am 23 years old... am not a child anymore... it's time to grow up.

okay.. just an update of my life...

2007-11-23T22:43:00.000+11:00

Firstly, I havent gotten my laptop back and when i went over to the shop for the 2nd/3rd time in 3 weeks... (actually 4 weeks including the $180++ before) the guy now tells me tht he has installed a new heating system from Acer.. He took so long coz he had to order the part from acer... which i never gave him the GREEN light to do so. It will now cost me AU$200++ for that fix up... not including the original $140 he promised 3 weeks back that he'll install windows and transfer all my important files from my old HD...

so now altogether it'll cost me a whopping AU$400++...
where as back in msia i can do it for RM400... well maybe more or less;
or i have no idea coz for all i know you guys will say girls know nothing. .

Secondly, I spent more than AU$200++ today on shopping for stuff to wear, well this time it's dresses... woots... you wouldn't think i 'Jessica Poh' would buy dresses..
the bargain was I bought 3 dresses and a top for $105. Then the other place I bought 2 tops but it seems that it could be used like a dress and a belt for $140...

I always regret spending that much.. this is the 3rd-4th time that i've repeated the same thing in melbourne. . .

so all i can say is that i've worked for the money so i can do whatever i want with it... sigh... I'm suppose to save up for my future trips ler... london, NZ, etc.....

Did you know that the most i've worked for was 50 hours in a week.. and i've only recieved AU$400... go figure...

Lastly.. i tried to upload picture to Poon's laptop... and well i have no idea why his laptop couldnt read the files from the camera's memory stick...

so that means... NO PICTURES AGAIN........

i got my laptop back.... NOT....

2007-11-10T21:24:00.000+11:00

sorry no pics again....

sigh.. i spoke too soon... i returned my laptop last monday.. and got no response from the services, so i gave them a call yesterday and said it was done...

I went over this afternoon to find out that he said my laptop had a problem with the heating and he had to check it out coz he said while he was installing windows.. my laptop kept on shutting down after everyminute and it gets really hot...

well.. i know it does that too.. FCK ACER... regretted getting it, when i could have settled with a non-webcame toshiba... sigh.. no use crying over spilt milk...

same problem with my nintendo DS lite... i was so excited to have my DS a year ago.. when i

just realized that my DS is faulty!! the calibration has a problem.. and my warranty is going to end in 2 weeks... and I have absolutely no time to go all the way to the subburbs to the nintendo services in Australia to get it fix... sigh...

been working like a mad dog this whole week... if u add the time up... i've worked for 50 hours hardcore this week for a measly pay... sigh... under minimum wage so go figure... 6 days in a row non-stop work.

Well it beats keeping my ass at home and doing nothing... at least i get to keep busy and earn a lil something for the time being while waiting for graduation.

k, i'm off for now... ugh.. i can't believe that i'm so weak... i promised myself to loose weight... and all i did today was pig out....

i even told myself that i would go jogging for an hour... and it was a beautiful day to do it too..

WEAK!!

P.S. i saw a rocking limo today and a sizzling hot ride parked infront of it... but i was WEAK... was so self concious to think that other ppl would see me as damn sakai chink... LOL

but i thought... no point as i cant upload pics too, beside i've seen hummer limos a few times, and other rocking rides... even party buses... hehe

Got my laptop back!

2007-11-03T21:44:00.000+11:00

9.45pm

I got finally got my laptop back, although i still have to re install windows and extract my files... had to replace my HD with a new one... so now i have a fresh 80GB in this one.

Cost: AU$129 HD installation + $55 check up =$184

he said he would transfer everything and reinstall windows for me for another $140 and would take him 2 days.. im still thinking about it... coz he said he'll give me a case for my old HD and it would act as an external HD too... and he'll get rid of the viruses form my ipod, my 120GB external and everything that was infected my that shitty 'autoplay' virus...

he gave me a complimentary of 512MB to make my comp now up to 1GB of RAM :D

P.S Still no pictures at the moment because not using my comp yet... ugh... although i have quite a few pics to upload...

You drive me mad!

2007-11-01T18:03:00.000+11:00

6.04pm 1st November '07

How should i say this... I am so fcking angry! I havent been so mad before...
Doesn't she understand simple IN-GA-LISH???????????

I just got off work 2 hours ago...

-STOP-

7.28pm (4.28pm MY time)

hm... had a rather long pause... well was chatting.. and i kind of cooled down... but neways... i got off from work at 4 pm..

There is this waitress.. I guess she's probably new.. and this week is my first time working with her... She doesnt know that I've been working there long thatn she does coz i've stopped for 3 weeks.. and most prolly she started when I stopped...

1. her work ethics suck
- she's rather rude, and stubborn and doesn't know how to work as a team and i'm the one getting the nagging from the boss for her damn 'cho bo lan' stuff

2. she acts like she knows everything
- well i can say she does work hard... or just acts like she does.. but the thing is... she does everything wrong!!! wrong wrong WRONG! and i tell her the right way and she still goes out with a deaf ear... and the boss doesnt say anything to her... (maybe because they're both freaking viet or she's cambodian and these ppl look out for each other. boss is viet) FCK

I am so very tired doing her part... where she went wrong.. u know y... coz the boss will blame me saying.. you see the chairs wrongly u still dont do anything... well i did tell that 'chobolan-er' to put the chairs outside right.. and she doesnt... i told her to crush teh ice of teh longan drink.. and she doesnt... i also told her to put less ice and use the bigger glass for the juice... and she doenst... WTF was she taught??? maybe she does things too hastily.. and thinks she's so smart and go do everything herself... btw... she by right should 'watch and learn' don't need to tell her fck... i learned it the hard way and was never as bad as her... so i got so mad.. i had to tell the boss immediately for her mistake.. coz.. WTH man.. i do something averagely.. the boss scold.. she does things wrong! and get's no shit?????

3. she does no shit
i've been performing a one-women show... attending to the customers, taking orders, making thier drinks, serving side dishes, serving their food, cleaning up the tables, rushing here and there.. outside inside customers here and there.. customers everywhere.. and where has she been... somewhere i dont know... she's always missing.. do things so damn slow.. tkaing straws also take a lifetime.. i've never been so freaking tired in my life at work.. and itz been a long 6 hours.. from 10am to 4pm... sigh... she's does no shit man.. so she get's no shit..

4. maybe she's just plain dumb
ok.. i've only work with this girl for 1 day... so gonna give her a chance.. but if it doesnt change... i'm definitely going to rat out on her.. besides.. i am born in the year of the 'rat' neways.. but it really doesnt mean that...

maybe she's just plain dumb... or she's deaf.. or both.. and i guess she doesn't understand English? u know that's the thing.. i don't understand y would anyone be living in Melbourne and wouldn't be able to converse in ENG?? eventough they've been living here or working here for many years... wtheck is that?

neways... enough.. i had enough about bitching.. don't wanna get all agitated over that molehill...

ok.. i'm just going to end it here.. kind of lost the mood for writing now...
just one more question...

can anyone be angry, happy and sad at the same time?
Don't think it's something you wanna find out though...

Laptop to the Doc. (Out of service update)

2007-10-31T19:49:00.000+11:00

7.50pm 31st Oct '07

Firstly.. happy Halloween.

straight to da point...
Brought my laptop to the Doc. yesterday.... and it'll take em 3 days to figure out my prob... well that's because there is a queue. Sigh.. it will cost me AU$55 no matter what for the diagnose... and if i do decide to let them fix it up... he said it'll most prolly cost $140.

I'm praying that my HDD is alright because I've got so many important files inside...and was lazy not to copy it into my external HD. If my HDD is toast.... *knock on wood* it'll cost me AU$7 an hour for recovery... and it's not going to take 1 day to recover it.................... so.... $140 + $7/hr recovery x minimum 48 hrs = $140 + $336 = $476......... :( [at this moment AU$1 = RM3.11] ahhh!

seems like it's been bugging me forever... even thought it'z only been a day
gotta be optimistic.........................

other than that daylight savings had begun... so it's 3 hours faster than Msian time.

and also been working this whole week... have stopped about 3 weeks ago coz of assignments... so now my feet is freakin sore. ugh.... working to survive... literally

3rd post of the day

2007-10-28T00:12:00.002+10:00

Just something I did a real long time ago when every one was crazy making thier simpson avatars... I made one of Tan Sri Lim Kok Wing himself... yeaps the big man of Limkokwing University. (I Graduated with a Diploma in Graphic Design & Multimedia in LUCT back in 2004)

This can either be hilarious to him.. or the total opposite... no offense... it's just me doing silly stuff during my procrastinating periods when I'm suppose to be doing my assignments somewhere around August I think...

Software: Photoshop CS2

yea... got so much time up my sleeves... and why didn't i try to do my work... I guess I don't work that way.. only execute when the time comes... risky shit... but most of the times it goes my way :/

Just a little quickie

2007-10-27T23:43:00.000+10:00

Just a little something my fren asked me to do for him, a movie poster to be inside his film assignment. did it in less than 2 hours from scratch with photoshop.

The fonts probably needs a change... imeant the actor's names, the tag and of course the director's name himself.

other than that the colours needed a change too...

but overall was doing a quickie and didnt wanna tweek it too much... so after 2 hours or so.... this it is the final...

not too bad eh?... u be da judge...

Out of Service!

2007-10-27T23:33:00.000+10:00

Yeap... my laptop is officially out of service ...

was going to blog the other morning, but had to settle with something... then the next day I was editing pictures.. and didnt have mood to write... and then I fcked up teh systems.. by trying to fix up my bluetooth for my laptop... which i think eventually skrewed teh whole system up.. and now i cant even start my PC...

from Acer... to windows.. then resets and repeat~...

oh well.. typing this now on Poon's laptop...

can't be too long.. and no pictures again... SIGH...

k... gtg now.... am broke, am sick of it all.. and wht you gotta do when you're in this situation? go back to work and earn some money for survival :~~~ that's life...

life sux ATM... eventhough i've just finished my final semester and i'm going to graduate in a months time...

Updates will occur in a matter of time

2007-10-17T01:24:00.000+10:00

Melbourne Time: 1.25am . 17th October 2007

i've been living nocturnally for this past week.. coz doing my assignments during the wee hours in morning is very serene than the busy hours of the day...

furthermore, summer's around the corner, so the days are getting longer so i don't have much of a time to do my work in the dark...

It finally comes to an end by 9.30am 22nd October 2007

and i will be free~~~ hopefully pass all my work (i have to coz my parents already booked tickets down here for my graduation ceremony on 12th December 2007)

RMIT Graduate.... meh............

should have been a UCE graduate (University of Central England now known as Birmingham City University, BCU)

oh well.. that's history

laters all.. shower then back to work till b4 noon? ugh... have to finish it tonite!!! my online mag!!! crap..

*poof*

Phantom of the Opera

2007-09-09T16:47:00.000+10:00

Last Tuesday 4th of September, Poon & I headed over to the Princess Theater in Melbourne to watch the 'Phantom of the Opera'. It was spectacular!
This would be my 3rd musical I attended live in my lifetime.
The first musical was 'Cats' back in 2002 during the grand opening back in KL's Istana Budaya... I loved it... m favourite musical of all time... (Australian Cast). I was still taking my foundation studies back in LICT Kuching and i flew to KL for 3 days just to catch this event. Tickets cost RM275 for the grand circle seats... i think? *****5 stars

The Second musical event I watched was 'Miss Saigon' a few months back. Tickets were a Birthday Gift from Winnie da 'Poon' :)
We arrived a little late and as all musicals.. itz a full house every night (Location: Her Majesty's Theater, Melbourne) Miss Saigon was very uplifting; and I absolutely love the guy playing the role of the 'Contrator'? i forgotten what's his part already.... The staging was brilliant too and quick ! (Tickets: AUD99.90 x 2) *****5 stars

Finally 'Phantom of the Opera' was refreshing too after having to live through routine of Uni, Work, Assignments, Eat, Sleep, repeat~~ The Actor playing Raoul (John Bowles) really looked like a 'Barbie, Ken doll'! Seriously... He looks too bloody good looking... but for his singing.. can't say itz excellent, just A-Okay. We didnt get the main singer for Christine Daae who was suppose ot be 'Ana Marina', instead we had 'Julie Goodwin' the alternate (not as pretty as Ana)
For the Phantom we had the legendary 'Anthony Warlow' who has been playing the role for 17 years!... ZOMG! No wonder he was the best actor/singer there...
The Staging and costumes for this performance was beautiful and It makes me wonder, how they got the hundreds of candles on the floor in seconds, during the gondola scene... water was animated with I guess dry ice.. looks real... with the bridge and all... The chandelier too made a debut.. hehe!

This live video footage is of the same actor Anthony Warlow for phantom, but i got the understudy for christine, this Ana Marina is the main Christine

This next video is excellent... a part of a real stage video which probably never got released

Ok... gotta get back to my assignments... So much to do! only a few more weeks and Itz over....
Graduation is on da line....

2007-08-29T13:27:00.000+10:00

This post is my very first post back in 2005... grabbed this off my old blog page in friendster... it's really nice to read about my life back then and remember the good and bad times of yesteryears... and seeing the things I wrote... I do regret writing some of those, but I'm not going to delete my past post though...

July 28, 2005

What I miss...

After about 9 months... i finally had sashimi :P~ and i can't complain coz i have plenty more in da freezer!! :)

I ain't a glutton alright... but i really miss loads of my favourite food while i was in KL...

The mamak stalls!!.... (Restoran Amy... those tom yam daging, daging masak merah, the mee goreng, sup daging.... i love daging...)

from Abang at mayang in PJ.... daging masam manis....

roti tissue, tosai telur, cheese naan

other than that... i miss Burger King's Swiss Mushroom Cheese Burger <:D~~~

Auntie Anne's Almond Pretzel with caramel...

Dunkin Donut's Almond or Strawberry frost...

Baskin Robbin's Chocolate and Peanut butter ice-cream...

I miss IKEA's hotdogs!! and daim cake~~... and ice-cream...

Super noodle house's roasted duck noodles with thier delicious sambal~~

The 26 different styles of cooking crab..... the XO one... and the cream crab... which comes with the baked bread to dip in with the cream......

I miss the KFC there too... believe it or not... coz unlike kuching... u can get any part of the chicken u desire... plus they give u super extra cheese when u ask for it.... (wedges)

finally i would like to end my craving by saying i miss the penang lok-lok...

hehe :P~~~~~

what a fat ass....

-archive- http://jazzo.blogs.friendster.com/jazzo_gonzo_hearts_raleig/2005/07/what_i_miss.html

It's 4.20am...

2007-08-22T04:20:00.001+10:00

Yes it is 4.20am.. and I've got class tomorrow, but in the afternoon. I should be sleeping already.

My lifestyle has changed so much, or not any different in sleeping times compared to my LUCT years. I guess theres too much on my mind to go to bed too soon like the fact that I have tonnes of assingments to think of and submission for phase 2 for one of it this Friday...

Another thing was that I think I've out did myself this week by overspending like MAD I tell you...
I went to the pokies... thats's right... so that's negative AU$90 there....

Yesterday I spent AU$257... on cloths... WTH... on flip flops, a thin sweater and a T shirt... yeaps thts it...

but of course I work for my own Wad o' Dough... been doing that for my personal luxuries...

And worst of all.. I didnt regret a thing...

:(

off to bed........

The First Post: Part 2

2007-08-16T23:35:00.000+10:00

I got out of work late today so I kind of lost the mood to continue... but anyway I will just complete the post earlier.

Soon after that, it was realy strange... He used us Women kind of as a bait.. in this modern weird cage-like contraption... we all struggled to the middle of it.... while all the 'baddies'(rapist, muderers, sickos... etc) tried to get us.. but soon after.. time kind of stopped.. and he kad control of them.... so the women all walked out easily from the entrapment, and the 'baddies' were stranded there. Somehow there are those who manage to escape. They thoguht they could get away with it.. but the He manages to spot them out...

*My dream felt so real.. I felt so secure as I am in good hands...

The next part was I happened to meet this lady who lives in a cottage with her 2 children. Then a man came over... I can't quite recall his name but his initials were JB. I felt that there was something up with this guy, but anyway I was escorting this lady to see Him. We were walking past some train tracks and there were poeple already walking towards the meeting place. (sort of an abandoned warehouse)

When we all gather there, He warned us about the guy 'JB' that he was to be avoided... The women I was with freaked... and said that he was with her Children...

'JB' then appeared there with her kids... but we manage to take'em back to His side.

Jesus then settled the problem.... I'm not sure how.. but that was when i woke up....

-END-

This is the first time I've dreamt of something like that...

Maybe the dream triggered because for the past few months. I have been feeling withdrawal from what I've been trying to build, but itz now just wasted and gone...
Is it because I have been feeling the emptiness for the first time in my entire life??
Is it because of all the songs I've been listening to excessively by The Kellys and 'An angel' by Declan?
Is it because I have been too much of a good person and people just take me for granted and treat me like a welcoming mat...
Is it because of all the depression I try to hide from the world...
For all I know I have alot to be thankful for...

or is He trying to reach me? (because I do need His hand)

The first post Part 1

2007-08-16T14:45:00.000+10:00

The first time i've started blogging was back in 2004 if i'm not mistaken... I started slow.. then it got rather frequent... (in my standard was twice a week or so)

This year I've lost it all... i meant the mood for blogging.. I kind of called it quits...
but all of a sudden.. i felt like writing a little somthing today...

Since this is my first post in this new page (i use to use friendster blog), I would like to tell you a story about what I've dreamt 2 nights ago...

The Dream

It happened at a place... some sort of dessert-like with some sort of a huge cave around. There were people i didnt know, some injured, some just old.. some ill...
we were waiting for someone... and i felt that He was coming back...

Jesus the man Himself.

*I'm not religious or anything, am a free thinker but I do believe in God...

We were all waiting for Him anxiously and we know that He wouldn't let us down.

When He arrived, I announced to everyone upon His arrival... He then started healing the ill, injured and so on. It was nothing like you've seen before. I was in awe.

Then...

*to be continued*

I've gotta get back to work... as im writing this during my break... chaos...
Will continue this tonight... there's more....