My open diary: A new chapter

Well, I suddenly felt a huge tendency to write something. It's 3.09am and I have work to get up to... but I really felt a huge itch to jot down a few words so i'd look back and remember silly stuff I'd said or done.

It's mid november already! 2008 flew by faster than 2007 eventhough its a leap year this year...

Life is boring is kuching... I wanna go back to the big city life... I miss Melbourne for the food, life, transportation, people, suburbs, etc etc...

Work is brain dead, tedious, and getting nowhere... and I'm not gonna repeat this.. but yea... pay is the worst!!

I felt like writing coz life is going nowhere... but an update.. good news to my Ext HDD... it was a miracle... and I've backed up all my files on a new HDD...

I look at my previous post and remembered how I felt when i wrote it... its much better now.. but thinking about it still makes me hollow inside and still makes me choke a little... how I wish things just went smoothly...

My bro has left for Manchester... the house is pretty quiet besides the grandparent's, aunt, and my parents... which I hardly see coz of my working schedule... yes i work late and its 6 days a week..
In comparison: I work a year here and I could get a Mac book pro. I work a month in aussie.. I could buy one right away... GAWD

I've been playing the lottery once in a while.. the 20mil jackpot... that's in ringgit...
we get taxed 10 percent here in East Malaysia... whereas if u buy it in West Msia... u buy RM10.. its RM10... here u buy RM10... its RM11... I don't put hope ont he lottery.. but its the only thing we've got here in kuching that's close to playing the pokies... LOL

Anyway, I did say I've quit blogging... well I'm not blogging.. its kind of like an open diary.. nothing personal.

I doubt I'd put pictures up here.. coz I'm all about writing.. I have plenty of pictures in facebook... so i don't need to repeat myself here.

Lastly, I've reminisce about my childhood recently. Particularly the time where I first learnt to ride my bike without training wheels. I was either 6 or 7 years of age. I took off the training wheels on my BMX; and I remembered how frustrating it was.. my mum and our maid tried to hold on to my bike.. but i said i could do it on my own... It was late in the afternoon.. My sis and bro were also riding thier bikes.. but my lil bro had training wheels.. and my sis eventually gave up. I on the other hand was very frustrated.. but i didnt wanna give up and kept thiking.. I know i can do this.... Everyone gone into the house except me and the maid. She waited for me.. and I asked her to watch me..

It was already dark, wasn't even dusk anymore... and I said to myself... 'One more time.. and this time i'm gonna go for it' I then went fast and voila! I did it.. i was thrilled... It took me one blow... totally skipped the middle part... if there was any to begin with... I cyled a few more rounds.. coz I could before i headed inside the house.

I know that in times of myself giving up.. I gotta recall that... 'Never give up!' just like my HDD...

patience is a virtue, eventhough it has given me alot of stress beforehand.. but if i dont work smart and hard... i'll never make it.. my dreams and wishes will never be fulfilled...
It also sickens me to see myself work so hard... and other people just slacking their butts off.. in anything, working as a team... etc etc... and unworthy lazy rich kids who spend their parents money like nobody's business... without lifting a finger for it....

Well I've learnt to ignore that, and focus on myself more nowadays.. coz what's it got to do with my success... they're rich; but hey at least I know I'm working for it...

darn.. its so late.. prolly gonna be tired at work tomorrow.. but i always manage

-End-
17th November '08 - Monday - 3.40am

regresa a mi :~

Friends to best buds since 12th July 2006

'why do birds suddenly appear' - 26th November 2006

long distance since 23rd February 2008

heartbroken - 2am.. 8th July 2008

main reason: distance apart.. feelings subside.. gg....

friends?... I hope/guess so... cause the 'lil ones' are still counting on friendship and baka-ness... (pengwin nods)

well.. who's keeping track...

me... :(

The best answer

I may have quit blogging.. but I am not sure of myself then or now...

Anyhoo... this will be a quickie

I just wanted to emphasize on the common phrase and easiest answer to all of your questions "I don't know"

I think only people who are Lazy, inconsiderate and irresponsible answer with that phrase...

I was so pissed earlier.. and wanted to blog at that angry moment...

Maybe some people will never understand the mind of a person who strives to work for a better life now... it's sad that they try to question you and bring you down... especially when it's coming from your own flesh and blood... they will never understand me.

What's been happening in my life now?

I've been working for 3 months now.. work is good.. i like it... but... there is always a BUT...

everything has its pros and cons i guess...

I've been gymming... almost 3 months now.. and dieting at the same time...
I have had many cheat meals, 'recently'
food makes people happy... you get it?

I gym hard, i diet hard.. but when there are obstacles.. i guess my will power isn't as powerful as i thought it was.. but I'm not giving up.. i've come so far.. i've seen results.. i was happy with em.. but i have to be more patient with myself...

3 months.... 3 MONTHS! of dieting gyming almost everyday.. it is an achievement...
there is another achievement and it is a record i set when each day passes... I won't say...

Problems... life is a never ending series of obstacles...
I have awaken many bad habits from my past.. some from small to serious matters...

Failure... my ipod mini... 3 and a half years of companionship.. gone when i dropped it for the first time head first onto the tile floor after work, before heading off to gym.. i was bummed out.. screwed my week at gym.. till today.. no replacement yet.

my watch.. i worked hard for also 3 years old.. the glass split in half.. no idea how.. i'm guessing the gym weights must have tapped it...

my laptop... half dead.. left untouched to reduce further damage... collecting dust atm... no resale value...

ok.. enough is enough.. i'm not gonna cry over spilt milk.. all these must be a sign of letting go of my past.. its depressing... yea.. move on...

so it wasn't a quickie afterall...

one more thing... i'm not gonna post up any pics here... its just a waste of my time... i'd rather write my thoughts.. just like a digital diary...

Quit blogging

Yeah, I've decided to put this to a stop. if you want updates from me.. go add me or send me a holler on www.facebook.com

i wont shut this blog down though.

I kind of lost touch with blogging.. or maybe don't have the time.. or just grew out of interest for it. Blogging is about writing bout your thoughts and current affairs, but unfortunately i've got nothing on me now.. but pictures. I don't see the purpose of uploading hundreds of pics on a blog because the function of a blog is.. you've got it BLOGGING! not photo albums... so use flicker or shutterfly or better still use facebook where it's totally user friendly for all ages to surf through pictures of your life.

yes and they're specifically for people I know only or important contacts!

goodbye to blogging life. see yaz in facebook.com

Ciaos~

Just a little update

I've been back in Cat City for a few days now. I have been cleaning/clearing out my junk non-stop ever since. I just realized how young & foolish I was before by keeping all these so-called items. I use to have sentimental value towards these junk, but now i'm chucking them all out because there is just too much clutter. I wish I could have a store or a car boot sale to sell all my junk... I threw so much useful stuff away back in Melbourne right before I left. I could make a fortune selling them off in time

I miss Melbourne.

I miss him.

I need my own space... and I don't have that here being back home. No privacy, controlled boundaries. I miss my Melbourne home with my boy. I miss slogging for money in Melbourne.

Even though it feels like I've got nothing to do... but I have plenty of chores and errands to complete before CNY, before my dad's bday dinner, & before I head to KL/Penang in 2 weeks time. I can't hardly wait for Penang.

It's time for me to get back in the game.

P.S. I ordered a lomo camera (Fisheye2) last thursday night and I got it Fedex and it arrived on Monday morning... all for only AUD100... golly! Besides that, I have a new Canon 400D to my collection.

So long Melbourne...

I will be leaving Melbourne, Australia soon... and for good.

I cant believe that one and a half years have gone by so quickly. That's how long it took me to complete my degree course when I actually could have completed it in a year. Well I was young and foolish to asked for an extra semester when i first discussed it with an RMIT representative at Hilton Kuching back in 2005. He offered me 1 year on the spot... and I asked for an extra semester.

Oh well, that was the past. It seemed like it was yesterday when I applied to a few Universities and was offered a spot... 2 in UK, which i declined and made a wrong decision to study at RMIT University in Melbourne.

Ok, I won't be bringing up that mistake again. I am truly grateful that my dad sponsored me on my education ever since I entered Kindergarten at a young age of 3 1/2 yrs old...

I would have said good riddance Melbourne all because I had a rough 2007. Although I can say I am done with this city... i can't help feeling a little nostalgic of this place. I may grow from all my mistakes and obstacles I had to overcome the past year.

Melbourne has truly been an experience I will never forget or repeat ever again in my life. I will miss in in some ways, but the world is waiting for me and this is not the city I wish to settle down in.

Friends come and go in my life, but the ones who stay... I would like to say that even though we may not see each other or have contact for a long period of time... no matter what happens... if we're meant to be friends forever... I needn't worry... where will, there is a way...

This chapter will come to an end before the end of this month...