splitting headache & graduation

I've got a splitting headache... I just got back form work about more than an hour ago.

Poon helped me collect my graduation robes and motar board, tickets for my family etc.. but i had to go back to exchange the 'S' size motarboard for 'M'... my head is not so small after all. The robes and the motarboard stinks man.. damn smelly.. oh well.. what to do.. i'm not going to buy new robes just for graduation... it's rented and god knows how many thousand of students have used it along the years... ewww

I'm sick of working like a dog... i do my job well and i work damn friggin hard and fast.. and yet.. i still get nag at.. and what's worst... disrespected..

i respect people alot for what they do.. even if they do me wrong and what so ever.. but i still show respect to u as we are all human beings.. and what's good use if you show your bad traits... so i've decided to suck it up and be stupid enough to still respect you as im not the kind of person to be mean...

i think i'm way too timid and always get push around by literally everyone.. that's why i always get conned with money matters... even when i was little.. my sister would sell her stuff to me.. she tricked me into thinking it'z good stuff... she would sell her stuff turtle for RM5.. and RM5 is alot for a little girl of my age before.... till today.. i can say i've been conned from outsiders.. more than RM3000++ including ridiculous MLMs... those are the worst of all...
i even get conned for buying branded goods.. even though i realize that why do i wanna be like one of those girls or guys out there having own LV, GUCCI, Burberry, BMW etc etc.. but obviously the majority of them got these branded goods with thier parents money... DUH.. and im struggling buying then with my own.. well i ddint buy those mentioned lar... but just the minor stuff like AX, LACOSTE... etc.... but it's eatingg up my money and even though i've worked for about a year here with odd jobs and under minimum wage.. i'm still broke :(

you can call me the most 'BAKA' girl you've known... i'll accept it coz i've been such a pushover.. and i dont think that'll ever change..
no use crying over it too coz if i wanna change... i've gotta be such a BITCH and a LEECH then i can be like one of those materialistic people out there...

well i can be that too when i hit the lottery one day with a few million AU dollars or pounds for that matter... hahaah; one can only hope to dream...

P.S. omg omg omg.. my family would be here in a weeks time!!... and i havent clean up teh house and pack some of my stuff for them to bring home to KCH....

Testing my patience. . .

It's been over a month without my laptop.. Just last friday i went over and the guy said it would be ready by saturday... then i thought since he said so.. I'd come over today... "Tuesday" to claim it.

He said he'll call me when it is done.. but it's been over a month.. which what originally suppose to be 3 days tops to transfer all my file.. with a fee of AU$140... which now turns out to be a month++ and with an extra fee of AU$200++... WTF man... now everything will cost me including the original cost before of $190... almost AU$500++... argh.. it's just insane... i shuld have brought it to the asian shop instead.. argh!!!! I'm giving him 1 more week and by hook or by crook.... i'll get my laptop back.. fix or not.. i just cant take it anymore..

he is friggin lucky to be dealing with such a patient person like me.. no wonder i'm good in my waitressing job.... LOL...

P.S. I've passed all my subjects... so i'm graduating for real... on the 12th of December... and my parents and my bro will be arriving in 8 days... :D

woots~

This video is just so adorable... makes u wanna own a chihuahua... well a fat one like Pablo!

the first thing that got me out of bed this morning

i use to be a fan of this show when i was little.. i love it!

The Mousercise!!!!

$$$ spend spend spend spend spend

Yesterday I spent around AU$250

Today i spent $55 (hair cut, which i needed badly) + $151 (L-Carnitine, muscle milk & blender bottle for weight control)

I needed my hair cut badly.. coz i havent had a hair cut since before CNY this yr.. beleive it or not!
Besides that, my hair dye was halfway down.. and if i wanna make my hair look normal again through this process called "henna" not sure.. that's what the korean hair stylist said.. it'll cost me AU$280!! yeaps i cut my hair at a korean hair salon just opposite my apartment (Recomended my Evelyn Hii).

not too bad lar the hair cut... but the fringe looked abit funny at first.. then i told the lady it looked funny.. apparently she didnt understood wht i said and she had to have her co-workers come over and explain to her.. phew!

Secondly.. i've become a slob... well not exactly.. thank god i have a part time job waitressing... well that's another day's story... will tell you about my experience of working odd jobs her in Melbourne in a future post.

Slob meaning i havent been doing any excercise or weight training since about a year ago.. well exactly a year ago... very bad eh...

I miss futsal, i miss any rigorous activities like hiking, rock climbing, caving etc.. lol swimming too... anything that keeps me going... weight training get boring. but you do see results.. but i wasnt losing enough fat to see em... so that's y i have L-Carnitine to help me out.. and the muscle milk.. it's not for muscle building only.. but its for mela replacement... but of course you do not cut out your meals at a whole.. you actualy have to up your meals... and of coruse more vegies etc.. but i'm not going to go crazy on all of this.. coz i do enjoy eating!!! i love it!!!... i just gotta put more effort in dieting the right way that's all..

anyways back to reality.. i gotta star immdiately..

i bought dresses, i bought weight control stuff and a new hair cut.. i hope i can bring out a new image.. coa i felt like it's time for a change... i am 23 years old... am not a child anymore... it's time to grow up.

okay.. just an update of my life...

Firstly, I havent gotten my laptop back and when i went over to the shop for the 2nd/3rd time in 3 weeks... (actually 4 weeks including the $180++ before) the guy now tells me tht he has installed a new heating system from Acer.. He took so long coz he had to order the part from acer... which i never gave him the GREEN light to do so. It will now cost me AU$200++ for that fix up... not including the original $140 he promised 3 weeks back that he'll install windows and transfer all my important files from my old HD...

so now altogether it'll cost me a whopping AU$400++...
where as back in msia i can do it for RM400... well maybe more or less;
or i have no idea coz for all i know you guys will say girls know nothing. .

Secondly, I spent more than AU$200++ today on shopping for stuff to wear, well this time it's dresses... woots... you wouldn't think i 'Jessica Poh' would buy dresses..
the bargain was I bought 3 dresses and a top for $105. Then the other place I bought 2 tops but it seems that it could be used like a dress and a belt for $140...

I always regret spending that much.. this is the 3rd-4th time that i've repeated the same thing in melbourne. . .

so all i can say is that i've worked for the money so i can do whatever i want with it... sigh... I'm suppose to save up for my future trips ler... london, NZ, etc.....

Did you know that the most i've worked for was 50 hours in a week.. and i've only recieved AU$400... go figure...

Lastly.. i tried to upload picture to Poon's laptop... and well i have no idea why his laptop couldnt read the files from the camera's memory stick...

so that means... NO PICTURES AGAIN........

i got my laptop back.... NOT....

sorry no pics again....

sigh.. i spoke too soon... i returned my laptop last monday.. and got no response from the services, so i gave them a call yesterday and said it was done...

I went over this afternoon to find out that he said my laptop had a problem with the heating and he had to check it out coz he said while he was installing windows.. my laptop kept on shutting down after everyminute and it gets really hot...

well.. i know it does that too.. FCK ACER... regretted getting it, when i could have settled with a non-webcame toshiba... sigh.. no use crying over spilt milk...

same problem with my nintendo DS lite... i was so excited to have my DS a year ago.. when i

just realized that my DS is faulty!! the calibration has a problem.. and my warranty is going to end in 2 weeks... and I have absolutely no time to go all the way to the subburbs to the nintendo services in Australia to get it fix... sigh...

been working like a mad dog this whole week... if u add the time up... i've worked for 50 hours hardcore this week for a measly pay... sigh... under minimum wage so go figure... 6 days in a row non-stop work.

Well it beats keeping my ass at home and doing nothing... at least i get to keep busy and earn a lil something for the time being while waiting for graduation.

k, i'm off for now... ugh.. i can't believe that i'm so weak... i promised myself to loose weight... and all i did today was pig out....

i even told myself that i would go jogging for an hour... and it was a beautiful day to do it too..

WEAK!!

P.S. i saw a rocking limo today and a sizzling hot ride parked infront of it... but i was WEAK... was so self concious to think that other ppl would see me as damn sakai chink... LOL

but i thought... no point as i cant upload pics too, beside i've seen hummer limos a few times, and other rocking rides... even party buses... hehe

Got my laptop back!

9.45pm

I got finally got my laptop back, although i still have to re install windows and extract my files... had to replace my HD with a new one... so now i have a fresh 80GB in this one.

Cost: AU$129 HD installation + $55 check up =$184

he said he would transfer everything and reinstall windows for me for another $140 and would take him 2 days.. im still thinking about it... coz he said he'll give me a case for my old HD and it would act as an external HD too... and he'll get rid of the viruses form my ipod, my 120GB external and everything that was infected my that shitty 'autoplay' virus...

he gave me a complimentary of 512MB to make my comp now up to 1GB of RAM :D

P.S Still no pictures at the moment because not using my comp yet... ugh... although i have quite a few pics to upload...

You drive me mad!

6.04pm 1st November '07

How should i say this... I am so fcking angry! I havent been so mad before...
Doesn't she understand simple IN-GA-LISH???????????

I just got off work 2 hours ago...

-STOP-

7.28pm (4.28pm MY time)

hm... had a rather long pause... well was chatting.. and i kind of cooled down... but neways... i got off from work at 4 pm..

There is this waitress.. I guess she's probably new.. and this week is my first time working with her... She doesnt know that I've been working there long thatn she does coz i've stopped for 3 weeks.. and most prolly she started when I stopped...

1. her work ethics suck
- she's rather rude, and stubborn and doesn't know how to work as a team and i'm the one getting the nagging from the boss for her damn 'cho bo lan' stuff

2. she acts like she knows everything
- well i can say she does work hard... or just acts like she does.. but the thing is... she does everything wrong!!! wrong wrong WRONG! and i tell her the right way and she still goes out with a deaf ear... and the boss doesnt say anything to her... (maybe because they're both freaking viet or she's cambodian and these ppl look out for each other. boss is viet) FCK

I am so very tired doing her part... where she went wrong.. u know y... coz the boss will blame me saying.. you see the chairs wrongly u still dont do anything... well i did tell that 'chobolan-er' to put the chairs outside right.. and she doesnt... i told her to crush teh ice of teh longan drink.. and she doesnt... i also told her to put less ice and use the bigger glass for the juice... and she doenst... WTF was she taught??? maybe she does things too hastily.. and thinks she's so smart and go do everything herself... btw... she by right should 'watch and learn' don't need to tell her fck... i learned it the hard way and was never as bad as her... so i got so mad.. i had to tell the boss immediately for her mistake.. coz.. WTH man.. i do something averagely.. the boss scold.. she does things wrong! and get's no shit?????


3. she does no shit
i've been performing a one-women show... attending to the customers, taking orders, making thier drinks, serving side dishes, serving their food, cleaning up the tables, rushing here and there.. outside inside customers here and there.. customers everywhere.. and where has she been... somewhere i dont know... she's always missing.. do things so damn slow.. tkaing straws also take a lifetime.. i've never been so freaking tired in my life at work.. and itz been a long 6 hours.. from 10am to 4pm... sigh... she's does no shit man.. so she get's no shit..

4. maybe she's just plain dumb
ok.. i've only work with this girl for 1 day... so gonna give her a chance.. but if it doesnt change... i'm definitely going to rat out on her.. besides.. i am born in the year of the 'rat' neways.. but it really doesnt mean that...

maybe she's just plain dumb... or she's deaf.. or both.. and i guess she doesn't understand English? u know that's the thing.. i don't understand y would anyone be living in Melbourne and wouldn't be able to converse in ENG?? eventough they've been living here or working here for many years... wtheck is that?

neways... enough.. i had enough about bitching.. don't wanna get all agitated over that molehill...

ok.. i'm just going to end it here.. kind of lost the mood for writing now...
just one more question...

can anyone be angry, happy and sad at the same time?
Don't think it's something you wanna find out though...